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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 03:19

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

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A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I was very sick at this time too.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

How strict are your parents?

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

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And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

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When she asked me how she looked .

He knew the spot.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

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My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Honestly! Do you people actually watch all that nonsense produced by the nitwit network television stations or do they just claim you do?

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Would this be the day?

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

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He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I couldn’t, believe it.

I will be 64.

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So, i spoilt her more .

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

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Who then, do I blame.?

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

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But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

What are some questions obviously just asked for sexual gratification?

As i do to all so called friends.?

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

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This is how, and why children get BPD.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

All the time i was locked up.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

But, we were locked up after school.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Why did i forgive my father ?

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

But ive been too sick for many years..

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

One cannot live in the past .

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Ive learnt so much.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

We were not on the streets..

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Comes on , in middle age.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

He was dying to do it , i knew.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I waited trembling.

My family never makes their pension either.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I think the readers, may guess!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

I have no regrets .

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

This is soul school!.

(And it was in our own minds.)

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

She found it foreign!.

I could never make a relationship work though!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Was to survive, this bastard.

What did i know ?

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

And i lived it daily.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

She wouldn,t have been !

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

I was seconnd youngest,

I was scared of men, in general

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

She married twice! .

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I don,t even have a pension.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

He resisted the act ,that day.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

So whats the point in blame.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I never cut or harmed myself..

I said to her

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I write beautiful poetry .

She loved him until the end.

Especially a lifetime of it.

She was in good health!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Put me off passion for life!!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Im still living with it.

My life is so biszare .

I was 9 years of age.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

It was going to be , some day.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

But it wasn’t much.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

We all went to grammer schools